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16 17 years young
HS Junior SENIOR \:D/
I cannot function in a world without music.
I want to fly.
I admit to being extremely random.
I shop to stay sane.
I ♥ my BHs.
I want to travel the world someday.
I learn from the TV.
I actually love school. :|
I believe I am a superhero in my own right. ;))
I lead, but it is He who leads me.

Not the next.
The first.

More somewheres.
Multiply!
I can't believe I still have this

Monday, March 30, 2009
Desperate for your voice :x


John Vesely,

Why hello. :)) The moment I heard you'll be coming to the hallowed Ayala malls, I knew I just had to go. I missed Boys Like Girls, Boyce Avenue and The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, but I can't miss you. So I picked TriNoma, being the nearest of the bunch. Mig and I harrassed mom for weeks just so we can go. Now I kind of wish I chose a farther, less accessible one like Greenbelt (or even Cebu ;)) ), where there would probably be fewer people out to get a glimpse of the man behind the voice. Because man, TriNoma was packed because of you, and I got frustrated with the hoards of feeling emo's and the fanboys/girls around.

But as claustrophobic as I am, I can't regret coming out to see you because you truly are legendary. Your voice is perfection. It just reaches inside of you, you know? It grabs your heart undulately, twists it until all the blood oozes out, then leaves it alone to breathe--and it ends up fresher than it had first been. I really wish you had sung my favorite "Stranger" and the very painful "It's Not Over", but I'm left breathless with your set nonetheless. Each song gave me goosebumps, and I still can't believe I actually heard in person one of the best voices I've heard in my life (you own that honor with Alex Gaskarth, Juliet Simms, Alex DeLeon and David Cook).

Thank you so much for the gift you bestowed these humble ears. I really wish to hear you again--and soon.

PS. I am at a loss for words upon hearing you say that you and your wife had broken up. (But best friends still? That's just aww.) I mean, all your songs were for her! She must be a total goon to let you go.

♥ ayna: 12:40 PM.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Fly to where you are

Congratulations Seniors! \:D/
You're old girls now. ;))
I will miss you so much. Good luck to the life ahead!

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So now my usherette training days are officially over. But it still wouldn't be idle time yet (fortunately or unfortunately, I'm not really sure). Lolo's coming home from New Jersey on Monday, Maintenance Day on Tuesday, send-off mass in AC for the next batch of delegates for the Assumption Philippines-Japan Exchange Program on Wednesday, and Strat Planning on Friday.

Then, Report Card Day on Saturday. Eep. I am deathly scared to look at my card. Grades had spiraled downward, I'm sure. Thankfully, I'd be celebrating my 17th the following day--usually the case--so my parents won't give me such a hard time about it. /:)

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Oooh. I hate you. Embarking on my territory eh? Back off if you know what's good for you. >:)

(Di ko alam, mamaya baka para sa akin din 'yan. My gas. =)) )

♥ ayna: 12:59 AM.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Powhz

They're dimming the street lights,
You're perfect for me, why aren't you here tonight?
I'm waiting alone now, so come on and come out
And pull me near.
-- Hey Stephen; Taylor Swift

My summer doesn't feel like summer yet. I've been too... productive. No seriously. :)) I return to school for clearance, and I help out with the Year IV graduation as an usherrete (meaning I have to actually wake up early! :|). My only idle day so far was last Wednesday.

I decided to make me something I'd call my Summer Happy List, since I want to be able to remember the stuff that had succeeded in helping make my summer what I want it to be (which is the perfect mix of idle and productive, and all the while very happy :>). Whether or not this would be a weekly or once in two weeks-ly thing, I'm not so sure. I can still get so lazy to update. ;))

So here's the first of the many lists to come.


SUMMER HAPPY LIST!

1. Elianto nail polish
I've always been so crazy about nail polish, and this (along with TFS's) is my go-to brand. The colors are so pretty and vibrant, and it could last a little over two weeks on my toes without chipping. My favorite shades are turquoise, grape wine, dark purple, navy, and yellow. :)

2. Taylor Swift


After months of hearing the Twilight OST and Paramore's The Final Riot! on our family car, it's actually a nice change to go country. (I can't believe I just wrote that.) Her sophomore Fearless has a lot of really really good songs. Most remarkable for me are "White Horse", "Forever and Always" and the more upbeat version of "Teardrops on my Guitar". And you got to love her hair. :>

3. Yo Momma jokes from Mig's hilarious iTouch app =))

4. Joseph's
Thank you Aien and your busmates for introducing me to this wonderful place. ;)) Joseph's is this tiny air conditioned carinderia a walking distance from school. Their noodle meals are yummy and come in very generous servings (split with a friend!). Their halo-halo is really good too. But the best part is the super inexpensive prices. It makes the HS Cafeteria seem super kurakot. Probably the main reason why it's become our tambayan. :))

And of course,

5. The usherettes!



Hello my bebe girls! Tekker, mga 'teh. LaB yoU pOwHz. (^_~)

♥ ayna: 11:56 PM.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
One hi and one hello

After almost three weeks. Finally. I'm happy.

Goodnight :D

♥ ayna: 12:10 AM.
Monday, March 23, 2009
I kept you.

Do you know what it feels like opening your wallet, expecting to see the usual wad of crisp moolah leering at you, but instead found--nothing? I have. Just today.

It's crap, I'm telling you. Now I don't want to sound all stuck-up and materialistic (I swear I'm not), but really. On one side it's surprising. I could've sworn I had a decent amount in there like a month ago, but it seemed to have gradually disappeared. (I found the culprit. I don't splurge much when I go out, but then, I go out pretty often. Yipes.) On the other side, it's scary. I need some money in my wallet. We all do. For me it's a matter of security. I commute and do a lot of last-minute stuff, and it makes me breathe to know that I'm ready with my trusty wallet. But what is it without the money?

Truly, the recession does not choose its victims. It just hit me, in time for summer. :|

But. Mwahaha. Despite my desperate lack of finances, I still found time to go to the mall. After a half day at school for usherette training and assistant committee head interviews, Gen and I went to Sta. Lucia. Man, there were so many people at school, you'd think there were still regular classes. I blame you, clearance. So we ate at Yoshinoya to Gen's request, a really good place to eat if you're craving Japanese but cash-strapped as I am. Their beef yakiniku was so yummy and worth the Php105 I begrudgingly shelled out at first. Even their red tea was good, and I hate hate tea. ;))

We shopped for a while. Gen bought a myriad of bright nail polish. @-) Then we had neoprints! Again. The operating guy knows me very well already. 8-)

Thanks Gen for the fun day! And for carrying my laptop. If not for you, it would've killed my shoulders. >:D<

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Something else happened today. Something--or someone--came back. I can't really tell myself. I mean it's long over, and I'm glad. Things are better now. They'll never be the way they were before and if that's what should be, then fine. We have our own lives. But it looks like the world is pulling some strings just so that we can still be a part of each other's. I have no objections with that. I actually miss us sometimes.

But tell me people. If you have something, but can't find it--what's the use?

♥ ayna: 5:04 PM.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Wormholes and revelations


CAMgirl! You truly are one of the best things that happened in my life. :"> I love you. :*

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Now Playing: Muse - Starlight

Second day of summer.

I just came home from Eastwood. Watched Race to Witch Mountain with siblings. It was awesome, the effects were stunning, and I didn't find it predictable one bit (though the ending could use a bit tweaking--too idealistic for me, but oh well happy endings always work). And the alien siblings are gorgeous. I like their huge blue green eyes that bore into your soul. :x

(Have I mentioned I'm a believer? Yes I am.)

After, I saw Czare by coincidence. Okay so technically, Mom did. Tadhana parin. :> We just walked around, watched the fireworks, crashed Iya's birthday celebration at Pasto. (Thanks for the food. ;)) Oh and yesterday, we also celebrated Czare's 17th at Gateway with the BHs. Fun fun! It was a day of many firsts for us. :>

But before all that, we enrolled for review classes at Expert Guides. Batch 9, two weeks of whole day classes. And then, I will have to return to school for some days next week. Clearance, and will be usherette-ing for the Year IV graduation. Yikes.

♥ ayna: 1:06 AM.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
We say summer!

The Quarterly Tests were--thankfully--not as hard as I thought they'd be. But then, that's always scary. That's me speaking from experience. I'll just wait (or not wait) for the Report Card Day.

One more thing, I am glad the year is over. My brain had obviously stopped functioning for school. I seriously don't know how to study anymore. I'd read my stuff for a while, feel drowsy, then swear I'd sleep for like 5 minutes, extending to 15 at the most, then end up waking after 3 hours. :|

So now it's summer.

Goodbye Junior year. You've been amazing while you lasted. My best year so far, for so many reasons I'd rather not say because I'm too lazy to type them, but I know I'll never forget you. \m/


Hello beach outings with me not swimming, roadtrips, review classes, Pokemon Pearl, more internet, insane downloading, One Liter of Tears, constant RP- and Sta. Lucia-ing (as if it's not constant already), hours and hours of sleeping (and goodbye eyebags @-)), intense heat and coffee shops.

BUM TIME HAS BEGUN. -Trina Gana
Amen to that. :))

♥ ayna: 9:25 PM.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Mesmerizing me like you always do

In the wake of three consecutive hell weeks, I still smile because of a few somethings. Fate is one of those. She may be a scheming, manipulative bitch--but right now she's making me sooo happy. I just hope she's not trying to mislead me into thinking things are meant to be (but if she is, then it's kind of working :|).

So now we are down to the last four days of Junior year. Hello effin Quarterly Tests! I hope I kick your ass.

And I sincerely hope inspiration will work its magic, because I have a lot of it now. :>

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For English, we were punished in the form of short story writing. I decided to go the chick-lit route after reading the insanely masaklap Sixteen by Maureen Daly. I figured, I should put my bitterness and unfound forbidden love fascination into something. I shall bore you all with an excerpt from mine. ;))

“Would you like to dance?” He asked suddenly.
I answered with the first real smile I had in days.
We moved towards the dance floor, and then we faced one another. I was greeted by the soft smile playing on his lips, mesmerizing me as it always did.
He held my hand. His grip tightened almost immediately, and I felt something push us closer. Looking at him, I forgot everything I had worried about earlier. I forgot the unfathomable stress that came with preparing this event. I forgot the bitter resentment over the fact that I can’t have him. There were people around us, and even their hushed murmurs sounded suspicious. The music was blaring louder than it had the entire day. The lights were blinding, flashing in the dark. But all I could see was him, and all I could hear was my heart.
At that moment, nothing else mattered.


Okay cheesy much. ;)) I guess we all know where this came from.

♥ ayna: 12:23 AM.
Sunday, March 08, 2009
Love is on its way

Tonight, I'm gonna fly.
Yeah, tonight I'm gonna fly.
'Cause I could comb across the world,
See everything and never be satisfied
If I couldn't see those eyes.
-- Hello Beautiful; Jonas Brothers

I just came home from Eastwood, and guess whaat. I finally watched Jonas Brothers: The 3D Concert Experience. As expected, the theater was teeming with ecstatic tweens and their parents (mothers, particularly), but I spotted some unlikely audiences as well.

OMJ is really all I can say.

The movie was incredible. You've got to hand it to JB, they really do know how to put up an awesome show. They've got the formula down pat--insane good looks, actually great music, fun gimmicks (in the form of the killer acrobatics and the instrument swap thing). Then they mix up their whoa songs with the melty ones (which I prefer) and the result is a happy everyone. I mean, I definitely was. I appeared to have enjoyed the movie more than both my younger sisters, who sat on either side of me. :))

Though I'm far from being--and never will be--like those disturbingly loyal fangirls who cry and scream for them, I have to admit: the hype is contagious. Well-deserved. Real.

Joe, you're sooo hot but now I can't help thinking you're a bit overrated. Kevin, you rock the guitar but you're a total camwhore at times. Nick.. good golly. Well, you melt the deepest parts of me. You are the most adorable thing. Let me be one of the millions of fangirls who will propose to you. Marry meee! =))

Um so there. Watch the movie. OMJ. :x


♥ ayna: 5:30 PM.
Friday, March 06, 2009
A Vision, A Goal, A Possibility

I NEVER imagined myself to be running for a position this high before. Daydreamed, okay. Once upon a time I did have those fanciful daydreams of standing behind an almighty podium, seeing my name with the position and whatnot, but I knew very well that that was merely a facade and hardly a reality. Years of leadership had taught me that.

In truth, a leader is a servant. She leads yes, but more than that, she serves.

And the question here is, am I ready to serve again? I've seen how I cracked and fell and lost humongous amounts of sleep (the very cause of my vampire eyebags @-|). I've seen my grades spiral downward. I've seen myself crying in frustration over the things I couldn't control.

But then again, I also saw the people I serve satisfied when something worked out wonderfully. I saw the fulfillment and eventual success of our activities, the recently concluded Juniors' Night in particular. I saw that I was able to make others happy. I saw myself happy.

And it happened again, didn't it? Kind of like I knew it all along, but refused to believe it because of--as always--fear. After a year of difficulty, the good stuff take over, and I find myself once more coming back to service.

Soon I will know if it's truly the call for me.


* I extend my love to LEGO--hello partymates! It's an honor to work with you guys. I'm already very proud of what we accomplished and I hope for the very best for all of us. :)

♥ ayna: 6:25 PM.