I NEVER imagined myself to be running for a position this high before. Daydreamed, okay. Once upon a time I did have those fanciful daydreams of standing behind an almighty podium, seeing my name with the position and whatnot, but I knew very well that that was merely a facade and hardly a reality. Years of leadership had taught me that.

In truth, a leader is a servant. She leads yes, but more than that, she serves.

And the question here is, am I ready to serve again? I've seen how I cracked and fell and lost humongous amounts of sleep (the very cause of my vampire eyebags @-|). I've seen my grades spiral downward. I've seen myself crying in frustration over the things I couldn't control.

But then again, I also saw the people I serve satisfied when something worked out wonderfully. I saw the fulfillment and eventual success of our activities, the recently concluded Juniors' Night in particular. I saw that I was able to make others happy. I saw myself happy.

And it happened again, didn't it? Kind of like I knew it all along, but refused to believe it because of--as always--fear. After a year of difficulty, the good stuff take over, and I find myself once more coming back to service.

Soon I will know if it's truly the call for me.

* I extend my love to LEGO--hello partymates! It's an honor to work with you guys. I'm already very proud of what we accomplished and I hope for the very best for all of us. :)

♥ ayna: 6:25 PM.

I NEVER imagined myself to be running for a position this high before. Daydreamed, okay. Once upon a time I did have those fanciful daydreams of standing behind an almighty podium, seeing my name with the position and whatnot, but I knew very well that that was merely a facade and hardly a reality. Years of leadership had taught me that.

In truth, a leader is a servant. She leads yes, but more than that, she serves.

And the question here is, am I ready to serve again? I've seen how I cracked and fell and lost humongous amounts of sleep (the very cause of my vampire eyebags @-|). I've seen my grades spiral downward. I've seen myself crying in frustration over the things I couldn't control.

But then again, I also saw the people I serve satisfied when something worked out wonderfully. I saw the fulfillment and eventual success of our activities, the recently concluded Juniors' Night in particular. I saw that I was able to make others happy. I saw myself happy.

And it happened again, didn't it? Kind of like I knew it all along, but refused to believe it because of--as always--fear. After a year of difficulty, the good stuff take over, and I find myself once more coming back to service.

Soon I will know if it's truly the call for me.

* I extend my love to LEGO--hello partymates! It's an honor to work with you guys. I'm already very proud of what we accomplished and I hope for the very best for all of us. :)